Depression Is…

de⋅pressed  /dɪˈprɛst/
–adjective
1. sad and gloomy; dejected; downcast.
2. pressed down, or situated lower than the general surface.
3. lowered in force, amount, etc.
4. undergoing economic hardship, esp. poverty and unemployment.
5. being or measured below the standard or norm.
6. Botany, Zoology. flattened down; greater in width than in height.
I grew up, depressed. My entire existence it seemed, was the [...]

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The Frailty of Life

There’s nothing like the rawness of losing someone in your life. I’ve never lost anybody REALLY close. Losing my cousin was the closest I’ve ever known. We were not really close because physical and age distance kept us from ever fully getting to know one another, but I loved her deeply all the same. She [...]

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Growing Pains

I’ve turned in the overwhelming oppressive yucky feeling about needing to do the right thing for a heart broken feeling. A self induced dumping myself out of the boat into cold frigid, rough waters. Whilst trying to gain my bearings…feels like I’ve been doing that for MONTHS now…my head is all over the place. Mostly [...]

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Somewhere along life’s journey, I lost my voice

Not the laryngitis variety.
There’s a little bitty girl inside of me that feels about 5 or 6 years old. A while back I talked about the broken part of me…the part that is completely contrary to the ‘wisdom’ side of me. That when the broken part appears, I feel all kinds of yuck. Stupid. [...]

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Healing Happens…when I’m sitting still

I’ve been visiting 5 Rock Ranch a lot this Spring. It’s a haven for Single Mamas. The owners of the ranch have had a burden/calling for single mamas for 30 years or something like that with the dream of a ranch for 28 years before it was finally manifest a few years ago. 108 acres [...]

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Drifting

Last weekend I went on a Retreat to the beach. This is my fifth year going and something profound always takes place there, although I don’t ever realize it until afterwards. It’s like there’s an intensive intake and it takes a week or so for it to relax and reveal all the goodness contained there. [...]

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Entitlement

[Enter...quasi stream of consciousness that leads to subject of Entitlement.] :O)

“One reason we are so harried and hurried is that we make yesterday and tomorrow our business, when all that legitimately concerns us is today. If we really have too much to do, there are some items on the agenda which God did not put [...]

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Clairsentient

You know all those silly Facebook questionaires that can sometimes be a little addictive? One of them has piqued my interest a bit. ‘What is your Sixth Sense’. It says I’m Clairsentient. I’d never heard of it, but I’ve done a little bit of searching and I found this definition:
Clairsentience (Clear Feeling) This is the [...]

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Alright, I’m done whining

I’ve been out of touch the past couple of months. Decided to get myself ‘read up’ on all the blogs I’ve missed. How in the world could I let this community of rockin’ single parents out of my grips? I’m so inspired. I’m going to go ahead and pull my head out of the pity [...]

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Journey of Self-Discovery

I’m on a never-ending journey of self-discovery. I’ve never known who I am. I’m a chameleon, changing colors depending on the environment I’m in. I’m so uncomfortable with this. I say that I do not live by the expecatations of others, but conforming to the whims and ways of those who surround me is clearly [...]

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