Just another manic…Wednesday

I’m so overloaded. I do not want to give vent to my frustrations, but I know there is a certain element of healthy to being able to do so. Sharing our burdens, so to speak. What’s the difference between whining/complaining and sharing burdens? Perhaps a study for me to look into. Nobody wants to listen [...]

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There’s Nothing Left to Justify

There’s a saying that goes something like this… We are not human beings having a spiritual experience, we are spiritual beings having a human experience.
I’ve finally come to a space that I’m in complete understanding of this concept. The clarity comes from having observed a relationship through many seasons of life. Five years worth [...]

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Getting Vulnerable

You know, when my writing gets stifled, is actually when I have the most to write about. But…I’m afraid. Afraid of judgment. Afraid of the crazy making in my head. To many of you who read my blog, you may actually be able to see this giant gaping wound in my spirit…the one that is [...]

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The Climb

I mentioned my next door neighbor in a post a little while back. Yesterday something very simple happened but it struck me to my core. He’s an attractive gentleman; tall in stature and built hefty like a solid soccer player. He is a soccer player. He’s from South Africa and has an accent that makes [...]

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Covering

When contemplating the lonliness and seeming isolation of singleness, when a particular individual is on my mind, its so easy to think about, rationalize, and justify all the reasons they could potentially work for me/us. I’ve done it with every man in my world. Rationalize why they WILL eventually work…how could it not? But it [...]

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Sunday Soup

Props back to the Canadian Bald Guy for the verbal appreciation towards single mama jugglers. Can’t get enough of those kinda affirmations. Really. Most days I feel like I’m doing a mediocre job at best because productivity and the best job possible are REALLY difficult to do on a perpetually empty tank. Yes, the little [...]

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I Love Because…

…He First Loved Me.
I’m reading a book right now called ‘Dating with Pure Passion’. Since I’ve become a Christian, I’ve been on this mad persuit of learning how relationships are supposed to work. Every relationship I’ve ever had has flopped terribly. I did not have any good examples of relationships working while growing up, so [...]

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Fortitude

I have a very special friend that sometimes I think I could spend the rest of my life with. We’re both single parents. And lately, it has occurred to me that it will be only by the grace and strength given by God that this (or any other) union into oblivion would/could ever happen. Because…we [...]

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This n That, Single Mama Ponderings

As I’m browsing the Single Mama Blogs tonight, I’m feeling a bit overwhelmed by a few things.
First, I’m so secretly (‘reckon it’s not a secret now…) envious and jealous of the good friendship between Ms. Single Mama and Modern Single Mama. I’m so very happy that they are closer together now, but sad that [...]

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Why Do Fools Fall in Love?

Nobody enters into a relationship expecting to be played a fool. But somewhere along the line our hopes, dreams, fears, expectations, insecurities and a miriad of other variables get the better of us and we lose ourselves to the folly of the game. ‘The Game’, however, always involves two people and each is responsible for [...]

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